Our music director will have surgery in a couple of weeks to determine whether she has ovarian cancer. Somehow, it is easier to have cancer than to see it in someone else. I am worried, until the surgery to know what stage it is. She is about ten years younger than I am. There is nothing I can do. At least with my cancer, I can decide, have some control. From the outside, it looks like chaos, something out of control (which it really is). And besides, I was in denial for about a month.
I'll be with her before her surgery (she has a lot of family coming into town to be with her, too).